Sometimes I need to change. It is not always easy to recognize when I do though. Changing the wardrobe is easy--it goes with the task or seasons. Changing my thinking is different. It requires me to have conflict, (either within myself or with someone else.) Conflicts by their very nature are not comfortable, so the discomfort then becomes the catalyst for the change to occur.
My most recent discomfort came from work. My performance was not in question. I would even go as far to say that my boss was "pleased as punch" with my performance. I had attained the highest level of growth in my position, and yet, that realization was neither a moment of pride or accomplishment. Sitting with that realization is a process within itself and I will spare you the ugly details. Needless to say it would not be too much longer before I finally made the connection that I needed to change.
Going back to college was the way I chose to manage, and thus alleviate my discomfort. It has been an interesting time as I again try to juggle work and college classes. Sometimes when I find myself up earlier than the alarm clock, worrying or planning a writing an assignment, I invariably ask myself, 'Is this worth the effort?' And I still answer myself with a resounding 'Yes.'
The logistics of college were surprisingly easy with the help from the staff at Granite State College. They are knowledgeable in adult education resources, (which means the have seen it or done it all) and they are always ready to help. Combining the availability of online classes for adults and accelerated studies, choosing Granite State College was a smart choice.
The changes I chose to make have made a world of difference in my outlook as well as my performance. My inner conflict is now beginning to resolve itself. Pride in my accomplishments are once again my motivators. What's yours?